Last night, I was delivered a breakthrough in the form of a word by T.D. Jakes. It did everything short of kicking me in the chest:
*When God created Earth, He created a system to maintain His creation. Every tree had a seed inside itself. Everything you need to fulfill what God has called you to do is within you. He didn't create the apple with its seed inside the peach. The seed is already within you.
*You can teach what you know but you'll reproduce what you are. You can teach what you know but you'll reproduce what you are. You can teach a child consistency and commitment, but if you demonstrate something else, that's what they will put forth. You can't preach and not be converted by your own message.
*What am I feeding that isn't feeding me? Look at my 24-hour days, and take note of what I'm giving that doesn't give any thing back. You're giving yourself to unworthy things while neglecting the things feeding me, then getting angry when they're depleted.
#ThatsIt! I hope there's a word in there just for you!